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"I think of all the things that have been written about me: that I am an inhuman female demon; that I am an innocent victim of a blackguard, forced against my will and in danger of my own life; that I was too ignorant to know how to act and that to hang me would be judicial murder; that I am well and decently dressed, but I robbed a dead woman to appear so; that I am of a sullen disposition with a quarrelsome temper; that I have the appearance of a person rather above my humble station; that I am a good girl with a pliable nature, and no harm is told of me; that I am cunning and devious; that I am soft in the head, and little better than an idiot. And I wonder: how can I be all these different things at once?"

-how can I be all these different things at once?

언제나 내가 알 듯한, 그러나 모르는 곳에서 아름답고 강인한 것들은 벼락처럼, 계시처럼 자리해있고. 내겐 그저 보고 느끼고 생각하고 가슴이 떨릴 만큼 그저 너무나 좋다고 고백할 권리만이 주어지고.