99.

"But nothing's safe. Do you know where we are? What they did to me? The torture? I told you I couldn't escape it. But when things got to be too bad there was one place I would go to in my mind. Here with you. You were my safe place. But not anymore, and I can't control myself. So the only thing I can control is this."

-네게 바치는 7,053개의 연서. 

그럴 자유와 그렇지 않을 의지가 주어졌을 때의 선택이 그 사랑의 죽음과 상대의 삶이라니.

내 머릿속의 너는 내 죽음을 위해 울어주지만 실재의 너는 모르고. 영원히 너는 모르고. 

That Love is all there is,

Is all we know of Love;

It is enough, the freight should be

Proportioned to the groove.

무지란 어쩌면 이렇게도 연모와 닿아있는지.

It doesn't hurt me

Do you want to feel how it feels?

Do you want to know that it doesn't hurt me?

Do you want to hear about the deal that I'm making?

You, it's you and me

And if I only could

I'd make a deal with God

And I'd get him to swap our places

Be running up that road

Be running up that hill

Be running up that building

If I only could

You don't want to hurt me

But see how deep the bullet lies

Unaware I'm tearing you asunder

Ooh, there is thunder in our hearts

Is there so much hate for the ones we love?

Tell me, we both matter, don't we?

You, it's you and me

It's you and me won't be unhappy

And if I only could

I'd make a deal with God

And I'd get him to swap our places

Be running up that road

Be running up that hill

Be running up that building

Say, if I only could

You,

It's you and me

It's you and me won't be unhappy

최근 둘을 생각하며 가장 많이 듣는. -너와 나야, 불행할 리가 없지.

이미 그 자신은 사라진, 그러나 남긴 기록들로 여전히 무한한 영향을 끼치는 이들을 스크린 - 명백한 의도를 지닌 - 으로 다시 훑는 일에 대한 내 감정은 부정적인 쪽에 가깝지만.  

"My mum had her children, was bringing them up single-handedly because when my dad was there, he was never there. He was just never there, like for the important bits. I'm not talking about the school run. I'm talking about at night, when we were being shits. Like, "No, we're not going to bed." My dad was never there to be like, "Listen to your mother!" Do you know what I mean? That's all we needed. He said he was working."