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“I don’t like playing or seeing women sort of wafting about fanning themselves and being fairly vapid you know? I don’t believe it. -I had to get really get rid of this idea of her being languorous, just like beautiful and wafty and empty. I didn’t believe that. I see her as extremely complicated and elusive but also so bored… And damaged and in pain, because otherwise I just didn’t believe it. Why would she just not leave him? There’s something keeping her there and it’s fear.”

육상을 시작한 이유도 그만둔 이유도 다리였지만 그 3년의 무릎이 내 남은 평생을 괴롭힐 거란 생각을 해본 적은 없어서.

좋지 않나요? 우리는 평생 서로에게 빚을 지고, 그 빚 갚음을 위해 안간힘을 쓰며 서로의 만남을 이어가고. 그 부채가 각자에게 어떤 감정을 주느냐에 따라 이 관계는 저마다의 다른 이름으로 불리우겠죠. 

Everyday nothing seems to change

Everywhere I go I keep seeing the same old things and I

I can't take it no more

Oh, I would leave this town

But I ain't got no where else to go

Wake up in the morning to more, more bad news and I

Sometimes I feel like I was born to lose and I

It's driving me out of my mind

Gonna catch the next train and I

And move on down the line

Whoah I'll be ready now

I'll be ready when my train pulls in

Whoah I'll be ready now

I'll be ready when my train pulls in

I know my time ain't long around here and I

I can't live this life again

Walking down the street you might wanna cross a smiling face

But they'll stab you in the back as soon as you turn and walk away and I

Oh Lord, it's bringing me down

If things don't change around here

Ain't no use in my hanging 'round

Whoah I'll be ready now

I'll be ready when my train pulls in

Whoah I'll be ready now

I'll be ready when my train pulls in

I know my time ain't long around here and I

I can't live this life again

-미국인에게 기차란 과연 무엇인가.