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I want you flat on your back. Helpless, tender, open with only me to help. And then I want you strong again. You're not going to die. You might wish you're going to die, but you're not going to. You need to settle down a little.

당신은 날 위해 눕고, 아프고, 그 고통으로 날 사랑하고. 그리고 아프지 않는 나날에는 나를 혐오하며 당신의 재능을 경연하고. 

-약해 보일 때만 네가 내 것 같아, 은희경이 이런 표현을 썼었지. 

구걸하는 것이라 여겨졌던 비루한 사랑이 결국에는 권력이 되고, 싸움이 되고. 찬란한 경연이 되는. 눈앞을 휘황하게 하는 드레스보다 훨씬 강렬했던 사랑하는, 사랑받는, 결국에는 그 마음의 우위를 거머쥔 Alma의 얼굴, 그 표정. 

Would you like me to ask Alma to leave?

No, why?

Well, if you're going to make her a ghost, go ahead and do it, but please don't let her sit around waiting for you. I'm very fond of her.

Oh, you're very fond of her, are you? Well, in that case...

Well, don't turn it on me. I don't want your cloud on my head.

-Oh, shut up, Cyril.

-Oh, you can shut right up. Don't pick a fight with me. You certainly won't come out alive. I'll go right through you and it'd be you who ends up on the floor. Understood?

남성의 뻔한 조력자인가 싶었던 순간에 가장 팽팽히 당겨진 실로 존재하던 Cyril 또한. 

Last night I dreamt I went to Manderley again... I came upon it suddenly; the approach masked by the unnatural growth of a vast shrub that spread in all directions... There was Manderley, our Manderley, secretive and silent as it had always been, the gray stone shining in the moonlight of my dream, the mullioned windows reflecting the green lawns and terrace. Time could not wreck the perfect symmetry of those walls, nor the site itself, a jewel in the hollow of a hand.

Rebecca 다시 읽어야지;_;